Date: Wed, 9 Apr 2008 15:29:06 -0400
Subject: your blog
I'm a youth pastor in an evangelical Presbyterian church in Huntsville, ON. I stumbled upon your blog simply because I was doing some searching on materialism and found that you had a picture with your entry from early March with a quote about Jesus (the picture was the name of Jesus in a heart written in the sand).
That's how I got to your blog. I'm writing now because I am hurting for you from what I've read. Why are you working so hard on this blog. What is the point for you to put this much energy and time into this blog? I see the pain but I also see a rage...can you make sense of this for someone who has stumbled across the blog and can see the pain but not the point.
You have no reason to answer me, but it seems that you have the time and passion to write, so please do.
Thanks for asking Dan. You're right. There is a lot of pain.
I spend so much time and effort on the blog because I see in this, my church, the demoralization of women. I see God calling women to the extra-ordinary and yet due to sin in this world women being prevented the same status of men in the church. Our church is controlled, governed perhaps but not lead. It has, continues to and will destroy the church as it becomes increasingly more difficult to witness in our culture.
The view that women are somehow lesser beings is a problem in and of itself. It is this attitude that perpetuates domestic violence, sexual, mental and physical abuse. It is this kind of abuse, on a different scale that allows people to view others as less than human. It saddens me to see my Bible used as a tool for the naive and the wicked.
Our church is no different than other churches with respect to sin. It is different however in how it deals with it. Members of our Council piously point the finger at others when they have much more egregious and unrepentant sins than their spiritual victims. Our church struggles with men addicted to pornography, infidelity, domestic violence, sexual abuse, pressuring women into abortions, drug and alcohol abuse etc. Our church leadership is like many conservative churches who sees pride as a loftier goal than dealing with sinful behavior. Like many conservative churches pride and prestige stand in the way. It is here where sin can be buried and kept from the church members and the community.
I am angry at a church that summarily dismissed 40% of it's congregation who support women in all roles of office. I equally upset that the 40% are slowly seeking other places of worship. I'll take a chance here and state that I have likely served this church for more years than you have been alive.
Our Synod and our Classis supports women in these roles but our local church here in Exeter has decided to be out of sync with our denomination. Our church was slowly moving in the right direction when a number of years ago and number of other reformed (yet more conservative) churches lost dozens and dozens of members. They joined our church and this has brought our congregation to another level. In fact even our current pastor, a substitute pastor and a number of church council members have brought their ultra conservative views to a similar level of the churches that they themselves could not longer worship in.
I am angry that our church failed to take any action in an attempt to reunite their charter members back into the fold. Any family breakup is messy and I that God can move mountains and I believe he can move our Council towards reconciliation.
Until that day, I pray onward.